It is strange that I started to write on my blog only when I am depressed but recently I feel like everything is going upside down. I really have no idea what to do. School really sucks, I am far behind my working schedule. I am having difficulties with work. Not getting things I want and it all works on the negative way. I couldn’t sleep for last two nights and have 2 more days intensive working schedule. And it feels like the worst part is; she is so cold and distant to me. I feel like I really need her help but she is so mean to me. I wonder why?